Assalamualaikum and hye.
Okay I'm in a good mood today, so lets start.
I don't know why but i just want to share to u guys my non exist readers hahaha about positivity. To be exact how positivity helped my life a lot! Okay when i started my sem 1 in AsPer, i was excited at first okay. But this one particular person i dont know why she treated me like she really dont want me to be happy. Like she really being honest to me on one fine day, that she was really jealous with me just because i have many friend and true friends to rely on. I was shook at the exact moment. I mean what I supposed to react and calmed her. Hmmm. I was like hahaha no i dont have that many friends i just have bunch of friends that i always can rely on when i was at my lowest. So she just shrugged at my answer. I guess it was not a good answer. But tell me how can you relieve someone when u're at library full of people because it was exam week. So people will glare at us if we talk casually like hey dont be sad ... And whatsoever. But somehow, she just have me at that time, so wht can i do, takkan la nak tinggal je dia cam tu. Eventhough she always, no no like EVERY SINGLE DAY brought negative vibes to me. Like i just really want to be happy, but she snapped the happiness and like telling me i dont deserve me. Judging me like she knows me. Hmmmmm. Why did I brought this story up.. It just makes me sad over my hancus sem 1. After all, I had forgave her because tak berguna pun benci orang. Buat letih je. Dont waste any of your energy hating on people yall. Okay, sadly but yes almost 1 sem, i would sat beside her. Ohh dont tell me why would you do that if you know she is toxic. What can I do guys, she is from my late school (is that correct way to say sekolah lama hmm nvrmind) . I tried not to sit beside her, but she will be like why didnt you sat beside? And put a long face all the day. And all people know we are friend from same school. So people always be like, why you dont sit with her auni? Why she sits alone auni? Did u guys fight? OMG thats childish i know but it still happen guys even youre not in highschool anymore. Hmmm i guess people just want to know, not really care.
To be short, i was like in depressed state in whole semester. I would wake up in moody mood. Hmmm, sampaikan i gain weight teribbly and my face was breaking out. Hmm so sad, i was trying hard to keep my clear face. But hmmm nothin's work.
Okay then, when semester break, at first i was losing hope, like i dont want sem 2 coming ever. But i dont know, just one fine day, i want to change my life in sem 2. So I did workout to lose all the weight i have been gained in sem 1. I tried to be positive. Then baamm sem 2 came over. I was grateful beyond everything when I have one class that not same with her. And it was the first class in sem 2. There, I make new friends. A good one. The ones that i never thought they are this good. They are really one of the reason why I live happily in sem 2. Everyday I would never skip my mathurat and al mulk, i did this on my sem 1 too, but in sem 2 i was like more focused and really hayati gitu. Alquran and solat ofcourse benda wajib. Dhuha, i will cari masa kot celah mana pun, sampai have to jaga wudhuk because taknak remove sunscreen pepagi. I started to join volunteer, and study group. I did jogging every single evening by my own because everyone just want to relax in their room after 5 pm class. At first, it was awkward to jog alone. People looking ofcourse and tak ramai pun malay girls yang jogging sensorang. So i was like peduli apa aku, lantakla aku nak inner peace je. Jangan kacau k. Hahahaha i really enjoyed sunset every evening in bukit ekspo. It calms me. Do your workout and you will feel the change. There is one more things I do before sleep. Ofcourse my routine will go like putting on my skincare, then baca almulk, then I read a book -dont be sad- by dr. Aidh. I swear that book always like convinced me that it is okay with everything that happen in your life. Keep going. Allah always be there fr you. Then i will write my things that im grateful today. Small little things he I tulis but it means a lot. Atleast someone smiles at you today. Hehehe. Just simple things pun takpe. It will taught yourself to be happy and grateful with sekecil kecil perkara. And I always organize my day esoknya. I also tulis what i want to achieve or do next day. Like simple things and big things. Like i have to siapkan this assigemnt esok jugak- i have to do this kerja persatuan esok juga- i want to be kind at people esok- i want to make someone smiles- i want to do little deed-. And before sleep, maafkan semua orang, release all hatred on your heart, niat biar esok jadi lebih baik dari hari ni, breath in and out and remind yourself, next day is the brand new day, so I wont trikat lagi dengan past days. I will move forward and do the best of me. Niat jugak nak belajar kerana Allah, agama, bangsa and negara. Pray forgiveness for your parents and yourself. The things is i was happy in my sem2. Tipu la cakap setiap hari happy. But I appreciated and enjoyed semua benda yang makes me feel happy. I dont feel bitter dah kalau that girl macam provoke or telling bad things about me. Because i know, she must feel, you know, lonely or rasa kurang something kot daripada saya. So I dont want to judge her. I saparated with her on good terms ofcourse. Mestilah I kena sabar banyak dengan dia, but I learn that it makes me stronger, thoughtful, and powerful than ever. So believe in Allah's plan. He never go wrong on you. Just it is not the right time yet. Seberat berat ujian yang kita lalui, ada lagi insan yang lebih berat ujiannya. Kita mungkin tak akan atau susah nak melupakan sesuatu musibah yang berlaku, tapi kita pasti belajar untuk terima dan redha dengan setiap apa yanh berlaku. Percaya qada qadar Allah. One day you will understand and know the hikmah behind something that happened.
Alhamdulillah to say, i have got nearly perfect pointer in sem 2, while in sem 1 i got like okay pointer still pass 3.5 but i think that was not enough.
I have so many things to share but nevermind, lenguh bak hang nak tulis. Hhahahaha. Ignore my grammar and engrishhh. I know no one would read this but of course my future self will read this. So sorry future self if you come to read this messy story. Thats all people. Be kind thats all you need to do.😊
Okay I'm in a good mood today, so lets start.
I don't know why but i just want to share to u guys my non exist readers hahaha about positivity. To be exact how positivity helped my life a lot! Okay when i started my sem 1 in AsPer, i was excited at first okay. But this one particular person i dont know why she treated me like she really dont want me to be happy. Like she really being honest to me on one fine day, that she was really jealous with me just because i have many friend and true friends to rely on. I was shook at the exact moment. I mean what I supposed to react and calmed her. Hmmm. I was like hahaha no i dont have that many friends i just have bunch of friends that i always can rely on when i was at my lowest. So she just shrugged at my answer. I guess it was not a good answer. But tell me how can you relieve someone when u're at library full of people because it was exam week. So people will glare at us if we talk casually like hey dont be sad ... And whatsoever. But somehow, she just have me at that time, so wht can i do, takkan la nak tinggal je dia cam tu. Eventhough she always, no no like EVERY SINGLE DAY brought negative vibes to me. Like i just really want to be happy, but she snapped the happiness and like telling me i dont deserve me. Judging me like she knows me. Hmmmmm. Why did I brought this story up.. It just makes me sad over my hancus sem 1. After all, I had forgave her because tak berguna pun benci orang. Buat letih je. Dont waste any of your energy hating on people yall. Okay, sadly but yes almost 1 sem, i would sat beside her. Ohh dont tell me why would you do that if you know she is toxic. What can I do guys, she is from my late school (is that correct way to say sekolah lama hmm nvrmind) . I tried not to sit beside her, but she will be like why didnt you sat beside? And put a long face all the day. And all people know we are friend from same school. So people always be like, why you dont sit with her auni? Why she sits alone auni? Did u guys fight? OMG thats childish i know but it still happen guys even youre not in highschool anymore. Hmmm i guess people just want to know, not really care.
To be short, i was like in depressed state in whole semester. I would wake up in moody mood. Hmmm, sampaikan i gain weight teribbly and my face was breaking out. Hmm so sad, i was trying hard to keep my clear face. But hmmm nothin's work.
Okay then, when semester break, at first i was losing hope, like i dont want sem 2 coming ever. But i dont know, just one fine day, i want to change my life in sem 2. So I did workout to lose all the weight i have been gained in sem 1. I tried to be positive. Then baamm sem 2 came over. I was grateful beyond everything when I have one class that not same with her. And it was the first class in sem 2. There, I make new friends. A good one. The ones that i never thought they are this good. They are really one of the reason why I live happily in sem 2. Everyday I would never skip my mathurat and al mulk, i did this on my sem 1 too, but in sem 2 i was like more focused and really hayati gitu. Alquran and solat ofcourse benda wajib. Dhuha, i will cari masa kot celah mana pun, sampai have to jaga wudhuk because taknak remove sunscreen pepagi. I started to join volunteer, and study group. I did jogging every single evening by my own because everyone just want to relax in their room after 5 pm class. At first, it was awkward to jog alone. People looking ofcourse and tak ramai pun malay girls yang jogging sensorang. So i was like peduli apa aku, lantakla aku nak inner peace je. Jangan kacau k. Hahahaha i really enjoyed sunset every evening in bukit ekspo. It calms me. Do your workout and you will feel the change. There is one more things I do before sleep. Ofcourse my routine will go like putting on my skincare, then baca almulk, then I read a book -dont be sad- by dr. Aidh. I swear that book always like convinced me that it is okay with everything that happen in your life. Keep going. Allah always be there fr you. Then i will write my things that im grateful today. Small little things he I tulis but it means a lot. Atleast someone smiles at you today. Hehehe. Just simple things pun takpe. It will taught yourself to be happy and grateful with sekecil kecil perkara. And I always organize my day esoknya. I also tulis what i want to achieve or do next day. Like simple things and big things. Like i have to siapkan this assigemnt esok jugak- i have to do this kerja persatuan esok juga- i want to be kind at people esok- i want to make someone smiles- i want to do little deed-. And before sleep, maafkan semua orang, release all hatred on your heart, niat biar esok jadi lebih baik dari hari ni, breath in and out and remind yourself, next day is the brand new day, so I wont trikat lagi dengan past days. I will move forward and do the best of me. Niat jugak nak belajar kerana Allah, agama, bangsa and negara. Pray forgiveness for your parents and yourself. The things is i was happy in my sem2. Tipu la cakap setiap hari happy. But I appreciated and enjoyed semua benda yang makes me feel happy. I dont feel bitter dah kalau that girl macam provoke or telling bad things about me. Because i know, she must feel, you know, lonely or rasa kurang something kot daripada saya. So I dont want to judge her. I saparated with her on good terms ofcourse. Mestilah I kena sabar banyak dengan dia, but I learn that it makes me stronger, thoughtful, and powerful than ever. So believe in Allah's plan. He never go wrong on you. Just it is not the right time yet. Seberat berat ujian yang kita lalui, ada lagi insan yang lebih berat ujiannya. Kita mungkin tak akan atau susah nak melupakan sesuatu musibah yang berlaku, tapi kita pasti belajar untuk terima dan redha dengan setiap apa yanh berlaku. Percaya qada qadar Allah. One day you will understand and know the hikmah behind something that happened.
Alhamdulillah to say, i have got nearly perfect pointer in sem 2, while in sem 1 i got like okay pointer still pass 3.5 but i think that was not enough.
I have so many things to share but nevermind, lenguh bak hang nak tulis. Hhahahaha. Ignore my grammar and engrishhh. I know no one would read this but of course my future self will read this. So sorry future self if you come to read this messy story. Thats all people. Be kind thats all you need to do.😊
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