I'm sorry

Sometimes when life hits us hard, we keep complaining without even thinking. Being selfish is the best thing we could ever do in order to keep us away from being hurt. Constantly looking for other's mistakes. We don't even want to admit our own fault, until one day, u got REALITY CHECK. Is this the life I want? or it just my arrogance self? Because when u decided not to give a damn hell anymore, keep things to yourself, held yourself too high, higher than anyone can reach, THEN it started to hurt you. YOUR DAMN SELF! Fortunately today, i got myself a reality check! It's like I was conscious of being in a damn situation. I realized that it's not anyone else hurt me, but indeed I hurt them. I constantly lie to myself, comforting that it's not me that leave people, it's people leaving me behind. But let us speak the truth, it was me the toxic one. Yeah TOXIC Auni! now I admitted that I'm oversensitive, selfish, overthinking! How can I not realized it after for a damn long time! yeah, i keep my thoughts only to myself, but too bad, inside I was blaming anyone else! I HATE MYSELF for being that kind of person! How I wish I was not me. I'm sorry to those who hurt because of me! I promise I will change to a better person
Trust me, I will!