I'm so mad today! Like really mad! I don't even know why! Emm actually, few things did happen today. I felt terrible! I was trying so damn hard not to cry today! Especially infront of my parents..... And i really mad at my sister right now! Erggggghhhh, why everyone keep getting on my nerves! Okay I admit right now my emotion was not stable due to menstrual cycle but please.... Hmmm I was speechless, I don't even know how to defend myself! Erghhhhhh I'm so sadd i hate ittttt. Im gettinh emotional because of kitty too. I shouldnt do that to kitty. Now she must be scared of me. I tried to bath kitty, it turns out horrible! She was so scared like I was going to kill her. And she even ran to abe bedroom and hiding under the bed. I called her but i saw that she was looking me with real fear in her eyes. Erghh it just a cat but i feel so sad! Even worser when she finally go out from the bedroom and ran away out of house. I call her back, when she saw me, she ran awayy aaaaaaa. Im in a devastated state at that moment. Huwaaaa! I think i just need to calm down! I want to cry badly but I cant. Back then i used to force my self not to cry! And it becomes a habit i guess. I can felt my eyes was filled with tears but it wont roll down.
Next day update : When I wake up, the first thing popped up in my mind was the guilt feeling. I even asked myself why im so mad yesterday. I thought yesterday was not me. It feels like ure being hypnotized. So people, dont do anything stupid thingd or say something when ure mad. Your mind is not at the waras state, the best thing to do is to follow what our prophet told us to to when we re mad. The least thing you can do is be quiet. Zikr and istighfar. That will cool you down. When i think back, being mad tak berguna pun. You end up wasting your energy on unnecessary things and action. So please, if you want to live peaceful and happy life, just dont be mad sembarangan.Hmm i miss someone so badly. I know it is wrong, so i did everything to forget that person. I just hope .............. Hmm never mind
Moral of the day ; put away your ego. Ego kills you. Just dont please!
Next day update : When I wake up, the first thing popped up in my mind was the guilt feeling. I even asked myself why im so mad yesterday. I thought yesterday was not me. It feels like ure being hypnotized. So people, dont do anything stupid thingd or say something when ure mad. Your mind is not at the waras state, the best thing to do is to follow what our prophet told us to to when we re mad. The least thing you can do is be quiet. Zikr and istighfar. That will cool you down. When i think back, being mad tak berguna pun. You end up wasting your energy on unnecessary things and action. So please, if you want to live peaceful and happy life, just dont be mad sembarangan.
Moral of the day ; put away your ego. Ego kills you. Just dont please!
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