Just right now, i was just complaining about my life and suddenly realization strike me up. Why I'm complaining again. I'm scared it will be a habit. I'm always being secretive when it comes to family matter. I never told any of my bestfriend any of my family problems because I believe that they do not need to know at all what happening in my life. Even my bestfriends, I never told them any deep secrets. Thats why I always thought I never deserve anybody. Whenever my friends told me about their family problems, I was just .... Entahla it is not that i thought they are bad or somewhat... I just how can you trust someone that much... Eventhough I always kept any of my friends' secrets safe with just me. I think like walid always adviced that family matters the most. Apapun, family comes first, u cannot gaduh with your siblings no matter how annoying,unreliable and irresponsible they are. So thats why im being skeptical when people shares their family problems. Im just fine if anyone told me their family problems because i know some have it hard. It is just when it comes to me, when people asked, dont you have problems, i just .. Im okay. The truth is.. I just being honest only with my family. Anyway i love when people talk about their concern, share about their problems... It makes me feel that im important in their life. I appreciate if people coming to me sharing their problems, but i will never share mine. I dont know, it just become a habit. I think my writing lari jauh dari niat asal.